The "Only" if only.

The sun is shining.  I went to the gym this morning.
Then had a lovely breakfast out with a friend; laughs and honest talk all the way through.

I should be completely satisfied with my Saturday.
So why fall into the “if only” pattern of thinking?

It goes like this:
If only I didn’t feel controlled by food I’d be happier.
If only I had a family, I wouldn’t turn to food.
If only I were working a normal job I wouldn’t be a hoarder.
If only I had more friends, I wouldn’t feel lonely.

Wrong. Wrong. Wrong. Completely wrong.

The “if only” way of thinking misses the Only that is important.

All the other factors in my life may come and go. But the Only is the one that will remain.

Psalm 13
1 How long, Lord? Will you forget me forever?
    How long will you hide your face from me?
2 How long must I wrestle with my thoughts
    and day after day have sorrow in my heart?
    How long will my enemy triumph over me?
3 Look on me and answer, Lord my God.
    Give light to my eyes, or I will sleep in death,
4 and my enemy will say, “I have overcome him,”
    and my foes will rejoice when I fall.
5 But I trust in your unfailing love;
    my heart rejoices in your salvation.
6 I will sing the Lord’s praise,
    for he has been good to me.

I often think that if only my situation would change, then things would be different. But it's the Only and His love that I need to depend on, day after day. So, when temptation, loneliness, neediness, uncertainty, fatigue or anything else that’s not of Him comes, I want to remember the Only one who can wipes those if’s away.