And so it begins.
A month-long leave from work. Removing the deadlines, demands and distractions of productivity in order to focus on what the heck has been happening with my thoughts and my emotions.
I know I asked for this time away. But it feels a bit surreal.
What if it doesn't produce a healthier outcome for me? What if I'm just the same after a month than when I first started? What if my whole life does get turned upside down?
Well, hello. Thank you for already joining me anxiety.
Guess you are the companion on this journey already.
Which is exactly why I'm taking it.
I don't want to continue a pattern of anxiety, depression, run away, start over that I notice now has marked by adulthood. And I know I cannot do this on my own. God is already my companion on this journey too.
Author and spiritual director, Terry Wardle uses the phrase "pilgrimage to personal wholeness" as a way to describe a season of intentionally seeking God for inner healing.
I like that phrase.
I've come to appreciate the metaphor of pilgrimage to speak about our life's journey, especially our faith journey, because the end destination isn't necessarily "the thing".
The thing is the journey. There's so much that happens along the way.
And so this month-long journey of my lifelong pilgrimage begins today.